I hate when The Monthly Special messes me up right before it comes along. I suppose that’s just called pms. It’s not even the physical stuff, like cramps and things. It’s the mental things that drive me crazy.
It’s knowing that my reasoning is out of whack because of hormonal things going on inside my head, but still allowing this messed up reasoning affect me. It’s like when you know you’re dreaming but you can’t really do anything.
I know that most of my decisions are based on intuition and feeling, rather than hard logic, to begin with. But it seems like the Pre-Special makes me throw all logic out of the window and I come to some pretty ridiculous conclusions and solutions.
But it’s kinda interesting being able to sort of step back from myself and sort of just observe it. I’ve pretty much learned to never really trust my decision making durring the Pre-Special. Cause if I did, I don’t even know where I’d be by now.
I probably would have dropped out of college, left everything behind, run off with a lover, hopped a train to Mexico, joined the circus, and maybe live in an old van drawing comics. And I’d live with a rugged black lab named Banjo, and call him Jo for short.
That actually doesn’t sound too bad.
Anyways, it’s been a screenprintastic weekend. Its weird how I’d really rather be spending hours in the studio than doing anything else. If only I didn’t have to eat or sleep.
And “ebullient” is just a really fantastic word, and the word of the day.