A few days ago I had one of those random sad days where I was just really unbalenced, and I couldn’t figure out why. There was a trigger that sort of set me off, but I knew that wasn’t really the cause of the general blues. I know most of my issues are caused by myself. So I stayed awake thinking about it and trying to figure it out. Part of me really believes in the whole moon phases effecting people thing, cause I really do weird things during certain phases. But I also know that can’t be all. So I thought quite a while and came up with a small list of rather self inflicted factors, and then realized these same things are probably almost always the cause of my downish times:
- Lack of good food - Crappy food and/or an empty fridge always makes me really sad and frustrated.
- Lack of sleep - This one seems pretty obvious.
- Lack of exercise - I’ve never really exercised a whole lot but I’ve noticed that I always feel a lot better overall after doing something physical, so it makes sense that a lack of it would make me feel worse. People have been telling me this for years, but I never actually believed them.
- Poor time management - This has a big effect on a lot of different things, especially #2. It’s amazing how much better I feel when I plan things out better and actually get things done.
- Not being assertive - This one is kind of weird. It sort of has more do do with being able to actually tell people things when I’d really like to. This sort of affects #2 and #4 as well.
Looking at that top 5 again it seems really obvious that those would be the problem, but for some reason it took me a while to figure it out. They’re sort of just here to remind myself later on when I’ve forgotten and need to get myself out of a rut, it also just gives me things to work on in general I suppose.
So lately I’ve been eating good food, sleeping as well as I can, running, dancing, (and soon, climbing), reading, and working on things. I don’t know why I put off doing school stuff for so long when I’m actually really interested in it. Anyways, time to work on that whole “doing stuff” thing.
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what are these moon cycles of which you speak? i have never heard of the moon affecting people’s behavior. You’ll have to tell me bout that one. But as far as the other stuff- i do feel better now that i’m running, i think. i didn’t fall asleep in class today. thats a good start.
i’m glad you feel better.